...is nothing. Really. This year, I have all I've ever wanted. It was just last Christmas, though it seems like so long ago now, that this dream seemed so out of reach...
When we got married, (almost 5 years now!) we had every intention of waiting several years before starting our family. We wanted to have fun, travel, get to know each other. It was just three months to the day of our wedding, however, that sweet baby Isaac was born to our dear friends Bill and Vicki. We decided maybe we didn't want to wait so long, and maybe we would just see what happened.
We waited and waited...saw a doctor, who said to wait some more...no luck. After 3 years of this, I decided to make an infertility appointment with a new doctor. He seemed so optimistic, and said that we had every chance of getting pregnant...we were young and healthy, and he started me on infertility drugs. Three months went by, and nothing. Up the dosage. Three more months, nothing. Up the dosage again. At this point Dr. Smith suggested that I might have endometriosis, and scheduled a surgery to look for/take care of the problem. So last December 7, I had the surgery. I didn't have endometriosis, but he did find another problem- I was born with both of my tubes closed. The doctor was so sweet about it, saying that he hoped he was wrong, but in all his years of doing this surgery he hadn't been wrong yet.
So we spent last Christmas researching other options, trying to come to terms with the fact that although we could still have children, it wouldn't happen the conventional way. I cried for days, weeks really. We moved on. Stopped the drugs. Made an appointment with a specialist in Spokane. Made an appointment for one last test to make sure the tubes were really blocked.
It was at this appointment that a miracle occurred! We watched the screen as the test showed the dye reaching the first tube: blocked. The second tube: blocked. Then all of a sudden, one broke free! It came unblocked! The next month I was pregnant. I got to cancel my appointment in Spokane, and the day before that appointment would have been, we found out that we were having twins. Two babies. Two miracles!
So this year, I have everything I have ever wanted: A faithful and loving God, who knew the deepest desire of my heart and gave it to me, times two. Two sweet babies, who remind me every day that miracles do happen. A Savior who came into this world as a baby Himself.
And really, how could I ever want more?